Acceptance is a real mess.
Last year was a struggle, no denying that. Stages of grief are not linear however some literature will tell you that after being down in the dumps you should turn the corner to a more positive state.
As far as the “stages” are suggested to play out, the final stage of grief is acceptance. The reason this phase is a mess is it’s essentially the new reality.
In an attempt to heal, there is an opposing emotional tide of not actually wanting to feel better as this means there is a distance growing between you and the person you lost.
I will never feel ok about losing Louise but there is an overarching objective to accept that your new reality is here to stay. The new reality is a change to everything you do and everyone you meet.
How do I embrace the present and the foreseeable future when it wasn’t in the playbook? How do I garner good memories for positive growth?
I feel I have to take ownership. Embrace the new priorities. Attempt to normalise my life. Be open to new experiences and relationships.
It’s so hard though.
I feel better this year but It’s still very tough.
